Friday, December 23, 2016

Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Looking back into the glass of past

I recall a dream once regarding someone I was friends with. The dream was being at his home and hiding me from his ex.
Oddly enough that basically came to fruition shortly after the dream. 
A lot happened after that. 
My friend offered me a place to stay because of life changing. Im grateful for that generosity, however it ultimately ended up being a bad decision. Got into a car accident, totaled my car. Felt stuck and my body was bruised. I realized at that the universe was giving me a big wake up call, this will not work here. I couldnt get a job in that city without a car.
I ended up leaving, at his generosity again.
We got into a huge argument that left our friendship burned.
Friends with benefits while trying to sort your own life out ultimately destroyed the friendship. 
I recently reconnected to pay him back for his generosity. The guy looks damn good still, better than before. How superficial of me to be attracted to someone's appearance. That is what the narcisstic sociopath I got involved with later on would say. That was a lesson and enough for me to say I do not want to get involved into a relationship ever again. I enjoy keeping a boundary line of protection from letting someone destroy your self worth through their sick mind.
After the brief moment of meeting my friend, the friendship ending, and reconnecting for a couple of email exchanges, I have come to the conclusion that he doesn't want to be friends. 
He hasn't been a part of my life the past 5 years and neither have I in his, and that's ok.
Life still goes on.....
At least I can say I tried.
Let go, move on! 

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

The odds are 2 to none

Between the 2
Both have too much
One good
One bad
One boring
One funny
I dont see a middle ground
Both Obsolete
The odds
Favoring farewell

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

2 right hand mittens

That guy needs to leave me the fuck alone!
You're not of interest to me.


We all have those days

Saturday, December 3, 2016

No more, no less

Reflecting back 
No response
Repeated 1 too many times
2 friends
Too many
Once upon a time we met
Thank you, for showing me
Only the music mattered
And still remains
The music never wasted my time 

To friends.....
Love, loyalty, honor, and respect