Saturday, July 22, 2017

Just another day in the life

We never know what battles are coming until we are faced to face with them.
The stranger across the street has their own, just as I.
A world full of humans having personal battles
A world full of humans not knowing each other's personal battles.
We can play the role of being strong for another, but can they provide the same role to you?
I've been diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer and I'm finding that I am consoling my family, friends, and coworkers.  Which is me being strong for their emotions.  I find my own self being supportive to my self at the end of the day and beginning of each day.
You do end up seeing very very few people simply asking each day "how are you feeling"
I have 1 person who is a coworker and friend who asks this daily. I'm blessed to have this friend. I call her Mary Star of the Sea ❤
Also known as mother #2
We laugh and cry every day since my diagnosis. She has been a godsend of a friend this year!


Sunday, July 9, 2017

Pigs

Fuck it
I'm kicking that bucket
Of you
If I could...
I'd kick rocks in your eyes
I loathe
In that past moment
Everything about your lies
Until I turn blue
And return to the skies
Finally I'd be free



Friday, July 7, 2017

Well well well

Wherever you are
I am not there
Wherever I am
You are not there
Whenever I speak
You aren't around
Whenever you speak
I'm not around
Whatever you are doing
I'm not aware of it
Whatever I am doing
You are not aware of it
Whomever you are with
I do not know
Whomever I am with
You do not know
However you
However me
Why oh why?
Can this be changed?

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Life.

Talked about a friend from my past today. There is no drama regarding that friend.
No regrets and I've let things be for nearly a decade and can keep on doing so as I have been doing.
Besides, next week is going to be a busy, stressful informative week for me regarding my health that can be good news or life altering
God help me!

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Current thought

When you notice the lacking of consistency,
But see deliberate destruction through use of words.

Friday, April 21, 2017

It's who? You? No?

This week has been very telling about family and friends.
And in the end, we are alone. 


Thursday, March 30, 2017

Tripped up

I don't believe he did all he could do,
He never once drove this way through
He may have moved near
mountains and the sea
But he hasn't moved mountains
I've yet to see