Thursday, September 29, 2016

Observation of booshit

With past situations that have caused me more anxiety than I ever expected, there's always someone there to listen. However, that someone has brought a specific word into the our conversation the other day that I thought was hilarious during my experience of knowing a naricisstic sociopath.
Anyways, every once in a while I am reminded of that experience. The real concern is how much of a sociopath is he? Could he be stalking me and using an alias? Especially with the word used the other day by this so called friend. A true friend wont run off from you in the middle of conversation when I bring up the shit that I feel regarding that person.
It definitely sends a red flag to my attention.
Social media has caused a bit of panic in me from what I endured by the narcisstic sociopath.
I will say, if it is him under an alias, at least he is aware of  how much I dislike him.
But.....he did teach me how to be aware of people like him.
Beware of those type of men in dating land and educate yourself!
If I were aware of that type of man existing, I would have never in my life even considered the path of that hell.
Again, I definitely learned you can never please a person like that no matter how hard you try to avoid conflict. He will twist everything to enjoy your misery. It is the one thing that satisfies him.
And the other friend, keeps up a good disappearing act when I express how I feel.
Friend much?

Yesterday, Today....Tomorrow

The good, the bad, the ugly....mindful, the journey is a fascinating experience

Rock N Roll Country

Seriously, God bless this musical genius!

I recommend you to go listen to the demo version of this song.

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Signed, Sealed, Delivered on Friday

Letting go of a few pieces from your heartfilled journey is incredibly depressing, but necessary to give love back to the one who gave a journey to me.

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Not Today

Hey Tomorrow!
What do you bring?
Throw back the memories?
Every thing!
Admirable, detestable
Why not on Tuesday?
One for the team
Relevant nonsense
The token victim dreams
Wednesday rain
Inside, away
A stone's throw away
Away from you

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Dinner Date

Tsk Tsk
A big fat fish
Cooked in the diswasher
Side by side cups aligned
Soapy flavor
Fishy Tea
It's not the same old routine
Take out next time

Sunday, September 18, 2016


A simple thought inside of a crispy piece of crescent shaped cardboard that many will read without thinking twice about the wisdom that is manufactured to the masses and discarded until another order of takeout is placed.
The cookie is not perfect, the numbers aren't lucky, but you can learn a word in chinese and ponder the message printed. Or, you can just google search and instantly get an automated chinese fortune delivered via technology. Taking away from our physical being little by little.
Eventually a 3D copy of food that will provide your body with vitamins and nutients that the physical body requires to survive will be available. If it ever does happen, I can only hope there is flavor for the future of food.
Perhaps this is the future of our planet we are destroying and Thom Yorke had it right when he sang Fake Plastic Trees.
Mission to Mars anyone? Dont forget your 3D printer to provide you with all the material items you believe will make you trendy on your new planet.
But please remember to listen to the music created on the planet earth while you live in a plastic bubble creating copied printouts of life.

#nature #life #ThomYorke #Mars #ChineseTakeout #Perfect

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Saturday morning tea and happy mug to start.
A friend from more than a few years back, popped into my mind recently. We both were going through similar things and we both have children. It's a win for the dating world. As time shows, looking back we both had to get our lives sorted out. A certain artist we both enjoy was our friendship beginning.

I wondered about him throughout the years.
This time was different. I actually took it upon myself to find out what happened to him without having to engage into conversation with anyone we both spoke to in the past.
Thank the brain for the memory function. I decided google would be sufficient enough for this curiosity.
I stumbled upon his wp. I had some anxiety at first for even looking him up. In my mind I begin to question "WHY AM I DOING THIS?"
The best part of the site is the countdown post.
Im just very impressed with that decision he made for himself.
In the small amount of time we were in contact, he did manage to make a difference in my life, good and bad, but not as bad as what came later after our disconnect that has allowed me to enjoy my own journey of the self. The insanity of it all has brought me to a new understanding of me.
I let it go and the time passed has allowed me to forgive myself and my friend.
In between the years....the music remained.

#happy #saturday #tea