In psalm nia

3 am overthoughts
Payback
My rule
Going forward
No more contact
Up next
Im busy
Busy
Busy
Busy
What?
Im also adapting
Selective listening
Got something to say?
Didn't think so
Im busy.
Have a nice day in the life
You don't know me sir
Or is it sire?
Sin-seriously,
Busy

Someday

I keep wondering what in the world will it take to visit again, to begin again ?
Clearly, someone has a fear. And if it is the fear I think it is, I am in a different place in my life and have a lot of responsibility going on. I can't make the same mistake of missing a flight like before. I got bills to pay, kids to parent, other people's schedules to write etc...
If that is not what he is fearing, then I could assume he just doesn't want more than just a number added to his facebook friend list, but I know that is not the kind of person he is. :)
Patience is not my strong suit, but dammit, I've been patient with him for years and with my job that requires even more patience than a kid at christmas. He confuses me and that is a problem. I'm not a toy, I'm tired of this "too busy" can't talk shit.
Im too busy for those excuses.

No No Drama......

Such a difficult week for me beginning this 2017 year. I recognize that I am vulnerable at this time, however, with past experiences behind me, I am fully aware of what can happen by allowing the wrong folks into my life at this time. I am never going into that manipulative fuckery again. 

And that realization makes me happy!

Volume up

Turn on the "Innerspeaker"
Tune out the all the chaos
*satisfied*

As I've made strides forward, I will always have flaws. I'm ok with that.

Gaslighting

This is such a great article to read. I just wish I knew of this before I ended up having to experience it on 2 separate occaisions. I gave benefit to doubt that people can change after a few years.
Still healing from it all.

http://everydayfeminism.com/2015/08/things-wish-known-gaslighting

Likely still the poor-nography

And you have to still wonder....what are his other vices?